• fifty walks

    fifty walks

    A month or so before I left my big government job in 2023 I made a list. 

    It was that typical sort of list for someone going through a life transition and it contained one hundred and change ideas of how to spend the next year or so, keeping busy and not losing my mind.

    I didn’t track any of it.

    I mean, some of it was in my head, locked in a kind of mental checklist of things I wanted to do, but life did what life always tends to do: stuff happened, the list mostly got derailed, and two and half years later I rediscovered this ambitious missive from my past self who didn’t yet know that life would have a bunch of flipping and flopping events both small and global that would get in the way of my optimistic plans.

    I found that list one morning, the day I am writing these words in fact, and I went through with my virtual highlighter and checked off the twenty or so things I actually managed to accomplish. Some of them were pretty cool. I did some traveling and made some streaks and wrote a book and did some professional stuff that even I figured was a long shot back in 2023.

    But there were a lot of things on that list that I haven’t yet done. 

    And one in particular caught my eye. 

    I had made a note that I should “log 500km in adventure walking” and yeah, sure, I’ve done a lot of walking this past two and a half years, spent a lot of time on my feet, run and wandered and strolled to the coffee shop with my keyboard to write, too. None of it, I feel, was really exactly what I had in mind when I wrote that item on the list.

    What is an adventure walk anyways?

    Well. That’s not so tricky to nail down as it might seem.

    In the simplest evaluation, an adventure walk is only this: a walk leading to some kind of adventure, an exploration of somewhere moderately unknown, and mostly just putting footprints in a place that is more interesting than the bicycle path around the neighbourhood park. A walk to the store can turn into an adventure, but rarely would one set out for the store claiming it was legitimately an adventure-seeking activity.

    This got me to thinking (as you may have realized by the fact that such thinking got me to writing) and as the city around me starts to thaw again for the spring, now might be just the time to think about what a summer of adventure walks might look like. Yeah, five hundred klicks might sound like a lot, but broken out into a a spring an summer, say two walks per week at ten klicks per walk that is suddenly a very achievable sort of plan.

    In fact it is early March as I write this and I can easily see myself planning pleasant walks around the city and beyond well into November. Inclusive, that gives me a solid nine-ish months to plan and log, say, fifty walks each about ten kilometres long and each fitting a number of basic criteria.

    Criteria One: It has to fit the definition of an adventure, in that it needs to be a walk to or through a place where I have never walked before, or at least somewhere I don’t go regularly. I can retread ground to get there, but the destination or the route needs to be novel and reasonably interesting.  Cutting across that familiar field at a different angle, or walking through a back alley instead of the main street in my neighbourhood would not count—but turning up that path through the woods to check out the view of the river valley from the other side of the hill would. What counts as adventure? I think it’s as that old saying goes: I’ll know it when I see it.

    Criteria Two: It needs to be logged. I have a GPS watch so in the strictest sense of turning on the tracking for my adventure walk and uploading a GPX file to a website later is pretty much automated and mundane at this point. But I also don’t think that will cut it. I think I need to both (a) write something about the adventure after it is over, and (b) have taken some kind of photo, made some kind of sketch, or otherwise captured some element of the space in an audio-visual medium to share that will make it properly “logged” for it to count.

    Criteria Three: It needs to be a purposeful walk, by which I mean that accidentally logging an adventure walk, or incidentally recording some stroll I took out of convenience is not going to cut it either. I think it needs to be planned. It needs to be something where I say, look, I’m going to this place to do a walk from A to B and maybe even back again and that was the intention of the effort. There needs to be a sense of intentionality and a notion of forethought behind the adventure. I’m not locking myself into setting a departure date and time or plotting a route in advance or creating a checklist of my itinerary along the way, but I do think it needs to be more an a whim of the moment.

    And that’s it. Can I log fifty walks in one year? Can I find fifty walks worth of adventure in and around my city? What will it look like if I do? What will it accomplish, if anything at all? I don’t know that answer to any of that as I write this, but I do know that my 2023 self would be happy knowing that I’m still trying to find purpose in this life of transition and change.

  • film: scott pilgrim vs the world

    film: scott pilgrim vs the world

    My long and frustrating quest for an Actually Good Movie Critique Podcast has been (temporarily) achieved.

    After nudging through an uncounted dearth of film discussion pods that seem more interested in trying to make jokes at a movie’s expense while doing little more than a basic rehashing the plot than actually discussing the film itself, I tripped over one by critic Amy Nicholson and actor Paul Scheer called Unspooled and down the back-episode rabbit hole I have fallen. It’s just what my ears and I have been looking for, and it has fumbled reminders of films I’d long-since-watched that I was suddenly re-inspired to dust off the digital dust and rewatch anew.

    What’s the movie?

    The first of those films turned out to be Scott Pilgrim vs. The World, that now 15+ years old comic adaptation by Edgar Wright, with Michael Cera and Mary Elizabeth Winstead. My two-bits recap goes like this: nerdy bassist Scott, recoiling from the struggles of his post-high school dating struggles, meets Manic Pixie Dream Emo Ramona Flowers whose dating baggage manifests as a roster of seven evil exes that Scott must defeat in successive video-game style throw downs in order to continue their relationship.

    All the while Scott learns the value of self respect and comes to understand how he has hurt his past girlfriends and himself and everyone around him while the surrealist retro gamer aesthetic drives a fantastical world building anchored upon a Toronto backdrop.

    How does it hold up?

    I was in my mid-thirties when this came out and much closer then to the source inspiration than I am now to even the release date of this film.  Back then I would have told you that half the appeal to my sad little brain was the aesthetic of this film, wrapped as it was in this eight-bit echo back to my own gamer youth. I got the other layers of message, sure, but I have fifteen years of emotional growth and parenting and personal self realization under my belt on this rewatch that I can almost guarantee I didn’t have back in 2010. I wasn’t a Scott, but I easily might have been equally oblivious to the nuances of some relationships as he was.

    That’s a tough thing to admit, but hell, I’m gonna be fifty this year and people grow.

    That’s the moral lesson of this film, I think, if there is one to be had: people grow and change and move on and stuff. We’ve been through the #metoo movement and the backlash against it that has manifested as this sour self-loathing wave of stubborn people declaring that empathy is for losers and being woke is weakness,  and a reprisal of hate-filled nationalism, so dare I ask where are we as a society on the Scott Pilgrim meter of self-reflective growth? Pretty low. It might just be better to ask if society holds up to the core message that is this movie.

    Did I like it?

    I have been tracking my movies over on Letterboxd for a couple years now and I rarely give films a bad rating, but also I rarely give them more than four stars. I gave this one a four point five. I did like it. It was something about the feeling of it. It was cozy and familiar. It was well made.

    The effects still felt effective (though to be fair, I’m living through an eighties nostalgia infection that I can’t seem to shake) and twinkled wittily at my own youth.

    The cast is a who’s-who of modern awesome people who have not broken our trust or gone wildly queueanon or done anything but make great work these past fifteen years, so I didn’t need to hold my nose at that. It’s just a good movie that is fun to watch.

    Is it worth a rewatch?

    I started this post by alluding to a movie review podcast. If you are into those, you should look up Unspooled. Paul Scheer is a stand up guy, seems like an honestly hard working actor, and has led a couple of podcasts that I would put on my list of favourites. And hearing his and Amy’s insightful commentary on this (and about a dozen other flicks from back episodes I’ve devoured these last couple weeks) inspired me to click on my copy of Scott Pilgrim and settle in. 

    If you’ve seen it before, it is a movie about growth after all, and layered enough that I think it’s an interesting measure for personal reflection.

    And if you’ve never seen it, like why not?

  • state of the blog, two: re-socialized

    state of the blog, two: re-socialized

    I haven’t been giving this poor blog the attention it deserves, I admit it. Other shiny things have captured my attention for the moment, tho the cycle of indifference will inevitably circle back around and you’ll once again wonder where I find the time to fill these pages with so much drivel.

    I am a bit of a yo-yo on social media, too. My current state of mind on the matter (and it will invariably shift to something else, likely sooner than later) is that lack of participation leaves nothing but a void to be filled with something else, or put simpler: if my aforementioned drivel is filling up your feeds that’s a few less hate-filled political posts and ai-generated influencer vids for you to watch before you get bored and log off. If we all did that, the internet might go back to what it once was. I mistakenly thought that people would recognize the gaps and their attention would shift away, that if us prolific folks were not posting so much people would log off, but it turns out those same feeds just get stuffed with trash that is more entertaining than engaging with the real lives of your real friends. Who’d have thunk?

    I took up a different sort of project on a parallel blog. It was one of those New Years gotta-do-something-fresh ideas that has given me a bit of traction for multi-modal creativity. I started a new blog over on 8 Clicks, the made up production banner that I have been using for my non-business professional work. It’s a weird line, I get it, but I do consider my writing and my creative self as a facet of my professional self, just not one I’m currently hanging a shingle to specifically market for—though one that I think rounds me out as a creative pro. It’s complex, but mostly I don’t want to hand over my writing as an asset, even just in the abstract way of directly connecting it to my corporation via a website. It’s mine, personally, even though the skills benefit both. And so I have a company and also a production house and they are different. Get it? No? Neither do I some days. The shorter version of that is I have been writing short creative affirmation style essays every weekday and posting them on a new dedicated blog over there, under my personal creative banner, and it takes up some time. I’m up at around forty posts so far. And then to make it more complex, I have been reading some of them into audio projects and then sometimes even doing a live-looping synth track as a backing vibe and—it’s just a helluva lot of fun to create, so I’ve been pushing hard on that. 

    And none of that is to even touch on all the fiction I’ve been churning out by writing on a pretty strict schedule. Push, push, push on that, too. 

    Meanwhile? Pushing less hard over here.

    Between all that and other paying-ish work, well… these wandering scrivenings have become a little more sedentary in front of a keyboard these days.

    Blurred together in the new projects and my current social media revitalization, needless to say perhaps that I am finding myself quite prolific online these days. I have been posting and back posting, and even dropping the occasional hot take (which, of course, gets exponentially more engagement than my silly word and sound and image posts). Undoubtably, many of you are rolling your eyes at my wishy washy whateverness. But people are messy and last I checked I’m still people. 

    What I need to find some time for is art. I have been sketching, sure, but my watercolour has been temporarily sidelined. I thought winter would be an inspo, but it turns out when you learn that sketching outdoors is a real jam then returning to your cluttered basement to paint is relatively less muse-ful. 

    I am still reading and logging my thoughts about books I finish. I am still tracking my media and writing little reviews, but I’m in a bit of a pattern of starting lots and finishing little, or worse, tackling books that are a thousand pages long and audiobooks that are thirty hours even on 1.2x playback and those simply just take time to churn through even if my attention locks long enough to do so.

    And that’s how things stand, I guess. I don’t know that I owe anyone an explanation for this place, but that’s the state of things regardless. Check out the other projects. Know that I’m not idle. And rattle the door knob occasionally to make sure that I haven’t fallen into a deep hole of my own creation, huh.

  • weekender, four

    weekender, four

    Being self-employed as I am, the holidays of my family tend to erupt into a kind of blur of confusion that leave me a bit discombobulated. The Kid just finished her reading week break, and we capped it off with a trip to the mountains, having left last Thursday and rolled back home on Sunday afternoon. I wasn’t on vacation, per se, but I obviously tagged along and spent four relaxing but unproductive days in the snowy rockies.

    Friday we bummed around downtown Canmore in the morning. The forecast was promising to warm up a bit from the sub-zero-teens and we figured we could do something besides dash from kitschy store to kitschy store when the relative heat-wave arrived. 

    That afternoon we did a gentle hike through a trail we’ve visited often called Heart Creek. It’s a two-in and two-out stroll with only a hundred or so meters of very gradual elevation, perfect for the dog and perfect for a winter trudge in fresh snow. 

    I had this idea to bring my portable audio recorder to see if I could capture some “soundscapes” rather than my typical hundred random photos of the mountains. The birds were uncooperative, and I managed to isolate some gurgling water, but in the abstract silence of the space mostly the only sounds were our crunching footsteps.

    We had a quiet evening in, avoiding the resumption of the chilly temps as the sun set behind the mountains.

    Saturday morning, the Kid and I walked down to the cafe and I did a spot of writing, but nothing much to brag about. Aside from the fact that Canmore tends to be my fictional muse, an unreal version of the town acting as the setting for much of my recent writing, I only really try to write while I’m there so eventually I’ll be able to truthfully claim that indeed part of both my novels have been penned in while in the shadow of those mountains.

    We did a longer stroll with the dog later that morning, and then went for a lunch at the local brewery, which is basically tradition at this point, though it was the first time that the Kid could partake in raising a glass with us there.

    We checked out the local sushi hole for dinner, and it was about what you’d expect from a landlocked Canadian sushi place in a tourist town: respectable but suffering from the long commute for ingredients.

    I did a lot of reading on the trip. I had made a conscious decision to leave most of my devices at home (the earlier writing was done on my phone with a portable keyboard I rarely travel without) and so I didn’t have any games, computers, or distractions, and the wifi was slow enough to be a barrier. I have been reading some Stephen King, because nothing picks one up as does a phone book sized horror novel.

    The Kid woke up on Sunday and walked down to the bagel shop to buy us a six pack, and we packed up the car with time to spare before checkout. Sunday traffic out of there was a bit of a chore, but we didn’t encounter the kinds of weather that would have snowballed us a week previous, and which arrived later that evening… after we were home and unpacked.

  • media: winter science fiction-ing

    media: winter science fiction-ing

    I haven’t been much of a television watcher these last ten years or so, but I do hunt down good science fiction when I can and enjoy a good speculative romp through the clever landscapes of surrealism and technology mashed together. Fantastic creatures, galactic politics, or philosophical swirls through the soul, it all nabs me when I can spare the time to watch. I mean, part of me would rather read, but I love cinema and long form media in all shapes and sizes.  

    Winter affords me more time to dig into neglected series, though, what with being trapped indoors by cold temperatures, icy sidewalks or often both.  This winter I have indulged quite a lot. I am currently mid-season three of Foundation, and I did a rewatch of Severance. But what I have to write about for now is:

    streaming: pluribus

    Let me just step in and join the millions of other people group-mind-posting reviews onto their blogs, newsletters, feeds, podcasts, and youtube channels gushing about this surprise nine episode show that seemed to have popped out of nowhere late in 2025. I should note that the Kid and I have started a rewatch of The Walking Dead, so zombie comparisons are rife in my brain. Pluribus is a kind of philosophical reverse zombie horror show: semi-spoiler alert for the first episodes ahead. The plot kicks off with the discovery of a signal from space which turns out to encode a seemingly benevolent virus that when it successfully infects a human being it links their consciousness, merges them, into a hive mind of all other infected humans. Unsuccessful infection results in the person dying, which becomes a bit of a plot point because our protagonist’s spouse is one of the one percent that doesn’t make the transition of infection. And our protagonist herself is one of the rarest cases, one of thirteen who are seemingly completely immune and neither transition nor die from the virus. The story erupts as that of the lone survivor in a world transformed into benevolent zombies who only want to fulfill her every wish and desire, to make her happy, while relentlessly seeking a “fix” to have her assimilated somehow into the hive mind, and our protagonist is not having any of it.  What results is a clever narrative of trying to justify lonely and overwhelming individuality against the comfortable collective. The zombies may not be moaning about munching brains but they want to consume something deeper: the self, and the first season debut is a ride of humour and horror that stands out as something fresh.

    streaming: stranger things part 5

    I know how much people wanted this to be amazing, and I’m going start with a couple points on why I liked it: First, Stranger Things was a soft story built on channeled 80s Stephen King-esque horror nostalgia. It delivered that, even through the end of season five, and watching I forgot all the plot holes and the narrative overkill and even overlooked the realities that kids grow up faster than writers can sometimes tell stories and in general enjoyed the final season. I enjoyed it. I didn’t regret watching it.  As much as some people want to tear stuff apart. Second, and if you’ve been paying attention at all—which likely you haven’t—I’m going to blame the victims here. Netflix has paid more for market research than they have for production and the one thing they have learned is that YOU won’t put your phone down for an hour to watch a show. I mean, I struggle too, I admit, but the general, broad, and generic “you” the television audience, you are texting and scrolling and looking up the actors socials and playing another game on your phone. Netflix understands. And they want to help. They need to explain everything out loud, three times at the very least, so that you can keep your eyes glued to the little screen in your hand and you don’t need to stop flirting or tweeting or whatever the fuck y’all are doing instead of pausing your life for sixty minutes to focus on a show. 

    Netflix has formulated the only way to keep you engaged is to turn the script into a damn audiobook that the characters take turns reading over the action of what is being shown on screen. If they don’t too many people get lost, then bored, then click away—and their ratings for the show plummet like a child falling through the upside down from another dimension.  What bugs you most about this style of storytelling is it assumes an backwards approach to what we used to consider good storytelling: show don’t tell, which is to say the actions and the words and the expressions of the characters should tell the story, not some long-winded explanation telling you what is happening beat-by-beat. Stranger Things 5 had very bad writing, yes, but I can read between the what-are-you-the-narrator?! soliloquies of the characters to read Netflix’s unpublished focus group data upon which this script rested. 

    streaming: 3 body problem

    I think what intrigued me most about the trilogy of novels that inspired this Netflix science fiction series was that it did something a little rare: it is a hard sci fi story with a galactic scope disguised as a modern human drama. If you don’t know the plot, here’s a breakdown: a persecuted and imprisoned Chinese scientist (the original novel was written in China) leverages her captive position in a secret research facility and knowledge of physics to send a radio transmission into space in the early 1970s and a few years later responds to a warning from four light years away telling the alien at the other end that humanity is failed and to come. What follows is the modern response and hundreds of years of imagined history as a response to a slow motion alien invasion in a hostile galaxy. The television adaptation makes the story a little more international, keeping a lot of the Chinese subplot and motivations but spreading the influential characters across a more diverse set of characters. The novels go deep, spanning hundreds, then hundreds of thousands of years, all of it based in an approach rooted in scientific “hard” speculative fiction, leaning into the physical realities of space travel, answering the fermi paradox, and unraveling the deeper dimensions of space and time. Season one of the miniseries has yet to leave the present day, but having read the books twice thru I suspect the in production season two will launch into the medium future and close the gap on the imminent arrival of the aliens. This is not an American-style sci fi story, either, as there are no solutions in big guns and shallow bravado, but rather hope is found in long and deep thinking across systems and time that ultimately rebalances the fight with the invaders and helps humanity understand its place in the universe, small as that is.

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Welcome. I’m one of those weirdos who still writes a personal blog. In fact, I’ve been writing meandering drivel online for decades, and here you’ll find all my recent posts on writing, technology, art, food, adventure, running, travel, and overthinking just about anything and everything …since early 2021.

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