• twenty-five

    twenty-five

    I’m gonna go on about this all day and probably longer, but today—as I write these words and post them on April 20, 2026—is my blogiversary. 

    On April 20, 2021, I was sitting in a hot little studio apartment in mainland Vancouver having just moved out there for work and I decided to write an email back to some of the folks back in Alberta—family and school friends, you know how it goes—and at some point (as I am wont to do,) I went down the metaphorical rabbit hole and well… I started a blog instead.

    There was no software to do that, of course, at least not that I had figured out yet, and so I hand-coded the whole damn thing, and wrote raw HTML for a few months worth of posts that followed.

    That started twenty-five years ago today.

    Today, where now I sit with a half dozen WordPress installations, a personal plugin repo, and a career built on making websites, that all looks quaint. Crazy. But it kickstarted a lifestyle. There’s no other good word for it.

    Oh sure. Those old, old, old posts and the first sixteen years of my blog are all archived offline. Alas, most of it was pretty stupid (not that what I post here is all that much better, even if it is often more tastefully considered) but I did write and write and write millions of words over that span and share them with an audience that was as enthusiastic for fresh blog … in kinda the same way that most of the world is currently grooving on doomscrolling their social feeds in 2026. Blogging was a thing back then. It was the way. It was the beating heart of the internet.

    Yeah, now blogs are a bit old school, but back when I started this unpaid gig I was twenty-four going on twenty-five, and and that was twenty-five years ago which (math nerds, go!) makes me forty-nine going on fifty today. Shifting over to a tiktok account or trying groove with you all on the socials was never going to be my speed. So, a few years back I doubled-down on the blog and now I write and write and write more words here and there and other places to keep up the digital patter of a well-blogged life. 

    Why?

    I have figured out exactly two reasons why this has stuck with me.

    One, I like to write and so writing something immediate and personal has always been a great way to hone those skills. It’s a warm up for more serious writing. It’s a habit. It’s a personal public diary of sorts. It’s practice. It feels like I have accomplished something.

    Two, it makes me actually do stuff. People tell me I am weirdly active and exploratory of a countless list of activities, hobbies, and projects. They are not wrong. But it’s not some attention disorder or curiosity overload, so much as the doing of those things and the writing about those things have been so deeply entangled it is almost a kind of chicken and egg problem at this point. Rather, I would actually argue that a lot of my curiosity manifests from a drive to have interesting things to write about. I’m not so much writing about the things I’m doing …as I am writing and looking for things to write about. I’m busy doing stuff mostly because I maintain this public accountability log that drives me to dabble and play and make and to become and stay interesting enough to write about.

    But whatever the reason, it’s been twenty five years. A lot has changed. A lot has not. And figuring out the whys and wherefores will be something I do until I post my last post. (This is not that post.) Stay tuned. The next twenty-five is sure to be really interesting… or something.

  • weekender, eight

    weekender, eight

    Spring actually seems to have arrived this past weekend. I’m going to regret writing that in a week when we get another late-season blizzard that clogs up traffic for a couple days, but between going for a walk in a t-shirt and running in shorts and considering moving the tomato plants outside for a few hours each day going forward, it’s definitely getting closer to spring.

    Friday evening we went to the mall. We never go to the mall on a Friday night, and I don’t remember the last time we visited West Edmonton Mall and stayed past closing. But the kid works there now and we offered to come give her a ride home so she didn’t need to take the sketchy bus at half past nine in the evening. So, the mall it was, and by the time we got home that was that for our evening.

    I woke up early on Saturday (I mean who sleeps in anymore? well, besides mostly everyone) and had this very clear vision for a wordpress plugin. What a nerd, you are saying, and you would be right to say so. But I spent about three hours bringing that vision to life via a mix of vibe coding and bug squashing and crazy testing. Now I have a automated posting buffer built into this very blog for pinging off a variety of scheduled and random messages to Bluesky and Mastodon social media networks. It works pretty slick, but also kinda reminds me why I don’t bother much with social media to begin with. Sigh.

    Karin and I took the middle part of the day to do chores. We sold a bunch of our old LEGO to a local second hand LEGO store (there is really a whole store for that nearby) and then took most of that money to go buy house paint. It’s all part of the same project as the Kid plans to move into the basement, possibly as soon as this week. It’s been cleaning and sorting and selling and cleaning and shuffling and soon painting. Then it will be a lot of moving.  All of it to give the Kid, now adult, some of her own space with a couple sets of stairs between her and her parents.

    We stopped on the way home and bought a whole tray of chicken wings, which I fried up in the deep fryer along with a batch of homemade fries. It was not a healthy dinner, but it was pretty tasty. C&A came by to play games and drink beer, but mostly to join us to go watch EF doing a figure skating competition at the rec centre nearby. We were out being social until well past our bedtime and then walked home in the still-warmish spring air.

    Sunday I did my run, of course. I personally logged twelve klicks as I continue to build to my half marathon in August. I say personally because were at the scattered training phase where one group of ten people running together somehow logs about five different distances as people add on, drop back, start early, bail out, or whatever. Either way, we all met for coffee after. Well, I drank tea, but we’ll pretend.

    The afternoon was a bit of a drag as we dove into our taxes. I doubt any ‘mercuns are reading this, but our taxes aren’t due for a few days yet so we’re not quite late—though with my tangled mess of incomes, having gone back to school briefly for upgrading last year and the kid now a real ‘dult with a real income and going to school and cashing out some registered educational savings… well, it wasn’t quite a standard fill in the blanks year for us.

    The gals ran off to do their pilates class mid way through and I took a break from the numbers, to play some music, but the evening chilled out a little as we had dinner and settled into just hanging out. Heck, if every weekend were this busy I’d need a vacation from my vacation.

  • synthnaholic

    synthnaholic

    I have been playing so much music lately. 

    It was almost two weeks ago when my new MIDI-controller arrived. I had ordered it over the long weekend and thinking it would be shipped later that week, trekked across country on a slow freight truck, sorted and maybe delivered within two weeks—well, I lowered my expectations. 

    It got packed up from a store that had stock on the north side of town, put on a FedEx van the next day and was at my house less than 48 hours later. It was crated in an old Fender guitar box and the lady driving the courier van announced “your new guitar is here!” when I opened the door and seemed ready to come inside, help me set it up and jam. I can’t tell if she was disappointed when I told her it was a keyboard.

    I wasn’t.

    I had bought a very small and basic MIDI controller a few months back, but it was the literal lowest end model by the same company. It was the vanilla 25 key model with nothing but a USB port and a couple simple UI buttons. It scratched the itch for a while, but only really proved to me that I wanted something a little more robust.

    I bought instead 61 key fuller featured model with enough adjacent functionality to keep me busy trying to learn both the tool and the technique—you know, how to actually play the piano—for a few years.

    So yeah… between that and the violin music which I need to be practicing for, um, that upcoming concert next month, my days have been very musical.

    A MIDI controller is basically just a piano that doesn’t make any of its own sounds. Its guts are limited to sending signals—MIDI, or Musical Instrument Digital Interface signals—down a cable to a computer or synth. I have been dabbling in both, and the controller itself came with a list of software encompassing about twenty-five hundred instruments. Each of those twenty-five hundred instruments has enough creative potential to keep me curious and exploring for hours, days, weeks, or even months so I’ve got a lot of ground to cover.

    And I have been learning the piano, too. Being able to read music, again, helps. I have a couple decades of poking mindlessly at the ivories to back it up, but I’ve focused on working through a technique book and methodically trying to learn hand positions, chords, and articulation. Maybe a fools errand at (nearly) fifty, but I’m having fun.

    Of course, I can also plug the controller into the synth. The more advanced model of controller that I bought pairs right up and lets me go much, much deeper on that instrument now that I have a proper keyboard UI for it. Where the software instruments are largely sampled software sounds, the synth is actually generative tones that are created by manipulating raw sound waves through cycling envelopes and filters, wiggling them around with FM passes and modulating it all across a dynamic and configurable matrix of dynamic adjustments. The synth is like hunting for audio in an infinite sea of changing variables, and making music from the result.

    All that is to say, I have been playing a lot of sounds in my office, and it is beginning to feel more and more like music.  And I’m having a helluva good time, too.

  • weekender, seven

    weekender, seven

    I think spring might actually be here.

    I was pretty tired Friday evening because I had gone on my long adventure walk that morning (and into the afternoon) and was feeling the weight of it in my legs for most of the rest of the day. 

    We celebrated the Kid’s first paycheque at her new job by going out for burgers: nothing too fancy, just the local Five Guys, but it hit the spot and saved me from standing in the kitchen cooking all evening.

    Saturday I made it to the pool and swam some laps. I don’t usually go on the weekends because its often insanely busy. I made an exception and knuckled through the insanity because the Kid needed a ride to the rec centre anyways and my other option was sitting around with the dog.

    I hadn’t mentioned it here, but I bought a bigger midi controller last week. I had got a little trial one to see if I liked it. That was a couple months ago, and it was small—only 25 keys—and as it turns out not really good for learning to play the piano. I enjoyed it and had some fun with it and I’ll still pull it out and use it for stuff (it was less than a hundred bucks anyhow) but it wasn’t scratching the keyboard synth itch.  So I bought a 61-key version and set it up on my desk wired into my stereo system and computer and pretty much any time I don’t account for here—hours and hours it turns out—was probably me playing chords and jamming through my sheet music collection.

    I made a shrimp pasta dish for dinner on Saturday and we chilled for most of the evening.

    Sunday I woke up and met the crew to run. One of the women who ran with us often for years, EG, had taken some time off for injury and then had a baby, and she showed up with the kid and a running stroller. We had about ten people out to start and ran a respectable eleven klicks. I took my turn pushing the stroller. 

    I made the mistake of putting on a mismatched pair of shoes. I can’t recall myself ever doing that before, but it happened because I was in a rush to meet everyone and they were both black… just very different vintages. Not recommended.

    I ran over to the grocery store to buy the ingredients for a peanut butter pie and then came home to make that. It was our contribution to dinner.

    Our plans to do some house clean up chores were interrupted when our neighbour invited us over for tea and cake, and we caught up with her. It’s funny how you can live next door to someone for years and then go months without much more than waving as you pass in your vehicles. 

    We went from one social event to the next, heading over to C&As for the aforementioned dinner, pie in hand, and hung out there chatting. We were planning our summer camping and hiking trips and made some progress with that—though we think we may be sitting out most of the overnight parts and just doing the hiking this year. Darn those creaky knees.

    And to wrap up the weekend, the Kid, who is now done classes and should be studying for finals, took a break and was out on Whyte until 2am… so you can probably imagine just how well her poor dad was sleeping last night, right?

  • fifty walks, walk two

    fifty walks, walk two

    Winter returned temporarily, and not that it should have stopped me from going out for a long stroll, but I’ll honest: I imagined this thing, at least the first few iterations, as some kind of romantic spring stroll as I shred the bonds of winter and embraced the last summer of my forties. 

    Then it got miserable for about ten days again, and well…

    The Route

    I’ve calculated (in the vaguest sense of that word) that I can probably log about ten of my fifty walks from my house inasmuch as I intend to follow my own loose rules. The Kid pointed out that I have a few more options if I don’t limit myself to loops and instead do some point to point walks and carry a bus pass to get back home from the other end.  Walking from home was not always the point, though, and the very nature of adventure implies something further afield. 

    Yet, I walked out my front door once again and started for the wilderness of the Transportation Utility Corridor (TUC) just beyond the suburban fences that guard this weird strip of highway adjacent, oil pipeline obscuring, transmission cable traced route towards the general direction of the river. 

    I had a sense of something unknown at the far end of that path.

    And indeed, when I’d crossed the river and climbed part way back up the neighbourhood on the far side of the valley, I veered sharply into some single track trail and carefully maneuvered around the remaining patches of ice and wet muddy slicks as I wend my way to the far end of the asphalt trail I’d just escaped.

    Mission accomplished, I did an about face at the top of the hill, the same place where we’ve been meeting to run our hill training runs recently (though on a different hill another klick further down the path) and descended a fairly familiar running route back towards my own corner of the suburbs.. and home.

    The Effort

    I alluded to the remaining patches of snow on the trail and by far this was what marked the worst legs of the trek. The snow was not longer, strictly speaking, snow and had turned to a crusty layer of slick pack ice that had been worn smooth by previous adventurers. Many of these were, of course, on little bits of decline in the trail where I found myself clinging to the branches of nearby trees as I tried not to topple myself.

    I also cannot neglect to mention the hilliness of my chosen route. For a huge part of the walk I was going up and down hills, be those familiar asphalt paths that we often run or struggling through the woods on sketchy trails in (what turned out to be a stupid choice of footwear) an old pair of sneakers-turned-everyday shoes.

    I brought along my proper camera this time and (despite temptation to pull out the phone camera once or twice) I stuck to my choice of lens and nabbed a small selection of interesting shots. I haven’t mentioned this previously, but I have been limiting myself this year to a single SLR lens for reasons of Pointless Creative Struggle(TM). My choice was a 40mm pancake prime lens that I have been enjoying. It was the only lens I took to Japan last year, for example, and I got a lot of great shots there while simultaneously saving my back from carrying too much equipment.

    At the end of the walk my watch was just a hair over 10km in 2 hours and 23 minutes. 10.15km in fact. Making my grand fifty walks walking distance total now 21.15km in 4 hours and 52 minutes. I’m gonna need to build a chart or something. 

    The Highlight

    Of course when you go on these walk you really expect to find the normal strangeness: interesting views, odd people, and weird constructions in the woods. I always seem to, at least. 

    This time the oddness came in a vehicular form—or lack thereof. Car parts were scattered along the diverted path I travelled. I came first upon the axel of a car, and then a radiator. A couple hundred steps further the panels of an old car were being used as a kind of makeshift fence along the side of the path. Certainly the snow was hiding more. And at the very top of the trail, perhaps no more than a hundred meters from the road, an entire engine block rusted and settled was set like an eclectic old stone marking the way home.

    Someone—or someones—had taken the effort to carry bits of an old car into the woods and scatter it along the trail in some meaningful way.

    All I was carrying was a camera, and that was enough for me.

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Welcome. I’m one of those weirdos who still writes a personal blog. In fact, I’ve been writing meandering drivel online for decades, and here you’ll find all my recent posts on writing, technology, art, food, adventure, running, travel, and overthinking just about anything and everything …since early 2021.

I write regularly from here in the Canadian Prairies about just about anything that interest me. Enjoy!

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