• weekender, four

    weekender, four

    Being self-employed as I am, the holidays of my family tend to erupt into a kind of blur of confusion that leave me a bit discombobulated. The Kid just finished her reading week break, and we capped it off with a trip to the mountains, having left last Thursday and rolled back home on Sunday afternoon. I wasn’t on vacation, per se, but I obviously tagged along and spent four relaxing but unproductive days in the snowy rockies.

    Friday we bummed around downtown Canmore in the morning. The forecast was promising to warm up a bit from the sub-zero-teens and we figured we could do something besides dash from kitschy store to kitschy store when the relative heat-wave arrived. 

    That afternoon we did a gentle hike through a trail we’ve visited often called Heart Creek. It’s a two-in and two-out stroll with only a hundred or so meters of very gradual elevation, perfect for the dog and perfect for a winter trudge in fresh snow. 

    I had this idea to bring my portable audio recorder to see if I could capture some “soundscapes” rather than my typical hundred random photos of the mountains. The birds were uncooperative, and I managed to isolate some gurgling water, but in the abstract silence of the space mostly the only sounds were our crunching footsteps.

    We had a quiet evening in, avoiding the resumption of the chilly temps as the sun set behind the mountains.

    Saturday morning, the Kid and I walked down to the cafe and I did a spot of writing, but nothing much to brag about. Aside from the fact that Canmore tends to be my fictional muse, an unreal version of the town acting as the setting for much of my recent writing, I only really try to write while I’m there so eventually I’ll be able to truthfully claim that indeed part of both my novels have been penned in while in the shadow of those mountains.

    We did a longer stroll with the dog later that morning, and then went for a lunch at the local brewery, which is basically tradition at this point, though it was the first time that the Kid could partake in raising a glass with us there.

    We checked out the local sushi hole for dinner, and it was about what you’d expect from a landlocked Canadian sushi place in a tourist town: respectable but suffering from the long commute for ingredients.

    I did a lot of reading on the trip. I had made a conscious decision to leave most of my devices at home (the earlier writing was done on my phone with a portable keyboard I rarely travel without) and so I didn’t have any games, computers, or distractions, and the wifi was slow enough to be a barrier. I have been reading some Stephen King, because nothing picks one up as does a phone book sized horror novel.

    The Kid woke up on Sunday and walked down to the bagel shop to buy us a six pack, and we packed up the car with time to spare before checkout. Sunday traffic out of there was a bit of a chore, but we didn’t encounter the kinds of weather that would have snowballed us a week previous, and which arrived later that evening… after we were home and unpacked.

  • media: winter science fiction-ing

    media: winter science fiction-ing

    I haven’t been much of a television watcher these last ten years or so, but I do hunt down good science fiction when I can and enjoy a good speculative romp through the clever landscapes of surrealism and technology mashed together. Fantastic creatures, galactic politics, or philosophical swirls through the soul, it all nabs me when I can spare the time to watch. I mean, part of me would rather read, but I love cinema and long form media in all shapes and sizes.  

    Winter affords me more time to dig into neglected series, though, what with being trapped indoors by cold temperatures, icy sidewalks or often both.  This winter I have indulged quite a lot. I am currently mid-season three of Foundation, and I did a rewatch of Severance. But what I have to write about for now is:

    streaming: pluribus

    Let me just step in and join the millions of other people group-mind-posting reviews onto their blogs, newsletters, feeds, podcasts, and youtube channels gushing about this surprise nine episode show that seemed to have popped out of nowhere late in 2025. I should note that the Kid and I have started a rewatch of The Walking Dead, so zombie comparisons are rife in my brain. Pluribus is a kind of philosophical reverse zombie horror show: semi-spoiler alert for the first episodes ahead. The plot kicks off with the discovery of a signal from space which turns out to encode a seemingly benevolent virus that when it successfully infects a human being it links their consciousness, merges them, into a hive mind of all other infected humans. Unsuccessful infection results in the person dying, which becomes a bit of a plot point because our protagonist’s spouse is one of the one percent that doesn’t make the transition of infection. And our protagonist herself is one of the rarest cases, one of thirteen who are seemingly completely immune and neither transition nor die from the virus. The story erupts as that of the lone survivor in a world transformed into benevolent zombies who only want to fulfill her every wish and desire, to make her happy, while relentlessly seeking a “fix” to have her assimilated somehow into the hive mind, and our protagonist is not having any of it.  What results is a clever narrative of trying to justify lonely and overwhelming individuality against the comfortable collective. The zombies may not be moaning about munching brains but they want to consume something deeper: the self, and the first season debut is a ride of humour and horror that stands out as something fresh.

    streaming: stranger things part 5

    I know how much people wanted this to be amazing, and I’m going start with a couple points on why I liked it: First, Stranger Things was a soft story built on channeled 80s Stephen King-esque horror nostalgia. It delivered that, even through the end of season five, and watching I forgot all the plot holes and the narrative overkill and even overlooked the realities that kids grow up faster than writers can sometimes tell stories and in general enjoyed the final season. I enjoyed it. I didn’t regret watching it.  As much as some people want to tear stuff apart. Second, and if you’ve been paying attention at all—which likely you haven’t—I’m going to blame the victims here. Netflix has paid more for market research than they have for production and the one thing they have learned is that YOU won’t put your phone down for an hour to watch a show. I mean, I struggle too, I admit, but the general, broad, and generic “you” the television audience, you are texting and scrolling and looking up the actors socials and playing another game on your phone. Netflix understands. And they want to help. They need to explain everything out loud, three times at the very least, so that you can keep your eyes glued to the little screen in your hand and you don’t need to stop flirting or tweeting or whatever the fuck y’all are doing instead of pausing your life for sixty minutes to focus on a show. 

    Netflix has formulated the only way to keep you engaged is to turn the script into a damn audiobook that the characters take turns reading over the action of what is being shown on screen. If they don’t too many people get lost, then bored, then click away—and their ratings for the show plummet like a child falling through the upside down from another dimension.  What bugs you most about this style of storytelling is it assumes an backwards approach to what we used to consider good storytelling: show don’t tell, which is to say the actions and the words and the expressions of the characters should tell the story, not some long-winded explanation telling you what is happening beat-by-beat. Stranger Things 5 had very bad writing, yes, but I can read between the what-are-you-the-narrator?! soliloquies of the characters to read Netflix’s unpublished focus group data upon which this script rested. 

    streaming: 3 body problem

    I think what intrigued me most about the trilogy of novels that inspired this Netflix science fiction series was that it did something a little rare: it is a hard sci fi story with a galactic scope disguised as a modern human drama. If you don’t know the plot, here’s a breakdown: a persecuted and imprisoned Chinese scientist (the original novel was written in China) leverages her captive position in a secret research facility and knowledge of physics to send a radio transmission into space in the early 1970s and a few years later responds to a warning from four light years away telling the alien at the other end that humanity is failed and to come. What follows is the modern response and hundreds of years of imagined history as a response to a slow motion alien invasion in a hostile galaxy. The television adaptation makes the story a little more international, keeping a lot of the Chinese subplot and motivations but spreading the influential characters across a more diverse set of characters. The novels go deep, spanning hundreds, then hundreds of thousands of years, all of it based in an approach rooted in scientific “hard” speculative fiction, leaning into the physical realities of space travel, answering the fermi paradox, and unraveling the deeper dimensions of space and time. Season one of the miniseries has yet to leave the present day, but having read the books twice thru I suspect the in production season two will launch into the medium future and close the gap on the imminent arrival of the aliens. This is not an American-style sci fi story, either, as there are no solutions in big guns and shallow bravado, but rather hope is found in long and deep thinking across systems and time that ultimately rebalances the fight with the invaders and helps humanity understand its place in the universe, small as that is.

  • weekender, three

    weekender, three

    The weather has warmed in the last week, but mostly that just means we can’t go outside because the freeze and thaw cycle is leaving the sidewalks a horrific mess of glazed ice.

    We settled in on Friday evening and watched the (delayed) stream of the Olympics opening ceremony from Milan, etc. We visited Milan in 2023 as part of our meandering European summer vacation, and Milan was one of the very small handful of places I was not revisiting from my previous travels over there.

    We ordered a couple of sets of AirPods from our Airmiles points. (Apparently they are changing the system so we decided we may as well cash out as much as we could and reset before the changes screwed us over or something worse.) So I spent most of the weekend trying out the crazy technology. I’ve been enjoying the noise cancellation feature and made more use of it over the weekend than I thought I would. (In fact, as I write this in a noisy cafe it is absolute distraction-reducing bliss!) 

    Saturday I got back into the running game. I have been couched for three weeks with a minor back injury, a strain from slipping on the aforementioned icy sidewalks, and I’ve been parked on rest duty barely able to move. I haven’t been running. I haven’t been swimming. I haven’t been to orchestra because I couldn’t lift my arms high enough to hold my violin. It’s sucked. But mid-last week it all just sort of cleared up overnight, so I was off to the races once again, literally, heading off to partake in a Park Run.

    It was my worst time ever logged in my dozen or so runs of that course, but between the terrible conditions and the alternative of being stuck back on the couch, I wasn’t complaining too much. Not too much.

    The Kid was cast in a one act play at the university, so she has been busy, busy, busy rehearsing for the last two months for that. It all culminated at this weekend when the New Works Festival took to the stage. We actually went to opening night on Thursday, but she had shows on Saturday evening and Sunday afternoon too, so her weekend was pretty much completely consumed by that.

    I didn’t go to the Saturday evening show, tho, and I stayed at home catching up on my television backlog before the subscriptions expire and then sitting in the basement making some music.

    I was back out on the somehow icier trails on Sunday morning, joining the crew for our #SundayRunday neighbourhood lap. Coffee ensued. Of course. And that pretty much ate up most of my morning before needing to rush back to get cleaned up for my afternoon.

    With the Kid’s show successfully wrapped and her riding on a cloud of post-production bliss, we made a fancy-ish dinner and had a celebratory slice of cake (she even put a #3 candle on in because she had finished three shows!)

    Her and I watched a weird indie movie and then spent another hour discussing what it meant and then looking up videos to try and have someone else explain it all to us.

    I had planned to do some writing but instead sat with my laptop in bed migrating some databases to deal with an upgrade notice. Ah, the joys of running a website. Sunday evening doing technical maintenance is a helluva way to end the weekend, huh?

  • cough-ee, two

    cough-ee, two

    I’m still coffee-less.

    I won’t further bore you with the medical details, but for reasons of pressing health management I have not been drinking coffee for over a month. I haven’t been avoiding caffeine, per se, but given that coffee was my major source of the stimulant I have simultaneously come close to clearing that out of my diet, too.

    In other word, January was a helluva month, and February is off to about the same vibe as January.

    As has been my routine for the last twenty-five odd years or so I have started my day with a cup of joe. My tastes for what goes in that coffee has shifted and changed over the years, but the coffee ritual itself has long been a consistent track on the daily playlist.

    When I left my last full time gig, now two and a half years ago, my morning coffee ritual became a little bit more important. I would daily start my productivity with a mug of coffee and and open keyboard, and two or three times a week I would hit up one of the four or five local cafes and settle in on some borrowed wifi and a cup of freshly brewed dark roast.

    I went into the Starbucks yesterday and walked to the counter. The woman recognized me and by name offered, “Hey Brad, it’s a tall dark roast, right?”

    “Uh—actually—” I replied. It was awkward for a moment but I recovered. “I’ll have a mint tea this morning.”

    “Oh, of course—no problem. I’ll grab that for you right here.” I could tell I had thrown off her entire day, too—or maybe she is dealing with my coffee-less life way better than I and I am almost certainly exaggerating the effect it was having on her. Yeah, the second one.

    Going coffee-less is having the desired physiological results, in case you are wondering. The health concerns that were suspected of exacerbating my symptoms have all but vanished in the last  forty or so days since I have transcended my addiction to the java. Net positive, right?

    What I never really considered, tho, was the very real impact on the psychological side of removing an anchoring routine from my life. 

    I woke up this morning, for example, and I was rifling through our tea collection. A couple years ago I bought a little wooden tea stand, the kind you might find in a trendy cafe, to neatly organize our tea offerings on the countertop. It started off as a delightful highlight of random houseguests who could peruse the selection. We keep in stocked from a mess of boxes stored in the cupboard below, tho, and I as I wasn’t seeing what I was looking for in the stand I went spelunking in the archives. Therein I found my hastily stashed coffee supplies—pour over cups, leftover filters, my Aeropress, bags of rapidly aging beans—stuffed in behind the tea boxes.

    My morning tea tasted of a kind of regretful loss, of imperfect replacements.

    Given the positive results of going coffee-less on my health I am struggling to see a reality where I would even jump back into a daily coffee ritual lifestyle again. The tradeoff is imbalanced. The cost is too much for the benefit. 

    But it doesn’t mean I’m not going to mourn the loss. 

  • spinning and looping

    spinning and looping

    I think I may have alluded to it in a previous post, long ago and last year, but I have been casually dabbling in audio and digital music.

    About a year ago now, feeling a little flush from working some part time hours at a local retail gig, I put a couple hundred bucks into a little digital synth setup. Clearance sales were my friend and I was able to get a helluva deal on an Arturia Microfreak synth.  If you have never heard of that particular toy be kind and don’t consider yourself too uninformed. It is a very niche product, a kind of mid-range digital synthesizer that is neither really a keyboard nor a pure synth box, obscure and  rather a weird sort of mash up of electronics and transistor punk meets musical instrument. There is really nothing else that looks like it, and I got one for about half of the MSRP at a blowout sale.

    I love that damn thing. I think the last time I fell so in love with a piece of electronics was when I got my first dSLR camera.  The potential of a tool for creative exploration uncouples itself from the constraints of the dreams of others when you have enough knobs and dials to turn that the variety becomes nearly infinite.

    I have been roughly learning to play the piano since. Sure, I already know how to read music and am coming up on the ten year anniversary of taking up the violin as a middle-aged student struggling through beginner music lessons and up into member of an orchestra, but those are musical skills… where often, the synth feels a lot more like creative play.  

    I feel like it’s music meets a lego set.

    But another bit of recent financial flush with some side work has opened up an opportunity to add to my musical set up. Not exactly striking gold, but a spare couple hundred bucks from a gig over the month of December allowed me to buy a couple bolt-on musical tools. 

    First, I bought myself an effects pedal. Technically it’s a guitar pedal, but audio-in is audio-in and if my audio-in happens to come from a digital synth then that’s not a fault so much as a creative choice and a musical opportunity. I had been doing very little structured musical exploration with that to date, but I had plugged in and passed through it’s distortion and reverb engines almost everything that makes a sound in our house, including voice and playing my aforementioned violin into a microphone.

    But then second and just lately I bought a looper pedal. Again, it is a guitar pedal, meant to be operated with a foot and an amp on a stage for groovy live performance, but again audio-in is… yes, audio-in, and those are not limitations so much as creative choices that I get to bend and musical opportunities I get to explore. I plugged it into my synth and have been loving the result. Loopers allow you one to record a bit of sound and then layer more and more sound over it on a loop, adding a bass line then a chorus, then rhythm and vibe and twinkles and song, building into something more than one can describe.

    I made this last night on the looper, layering about six different tracks in real time with a shimmer effect run through the effects pedal, all of it synth and sound and a mix of wet and dry mashed into a weird chaotic burst of noise and groove:

    I have been dabbling with all of it for the last week or so, recording tracks and loops and sometimes just sitting in the basement for an hour making dreamy soundscapes with it all.  My piano skills are not great, but they have vastly improved (practice with anything will have that effect, I hear) and I have even started some light composition. None of it is great. Some of it is channeling my inner-Ross. A lot of it is chaos of noise and lacks any resemblance to what you probably consider music, but there are pieces starting to emerge from the effort of learning the tools that is more than any of those things.

    And see, the thing about all this stuff is that these quasi-gadgets are all more than simple devices. They are musical instruments. Its not like buying a new computer or a game console. It’s not like nabbing some hot new phone. It’s not like upgrading your speaker system.  Yes they are all electronics and batteries and wires, but they are tools of audio creativity and would probably vastly prefer to be on a stage in front of an audience than in my basement.  They are meant to perform, in the literal sense of that word.

    I may be a long way off from live performance, but at the end of the audio-in chain is the last part: a recording system, one button to press to capture anything in the last step before the sound erupts from my headphones or speakers.

    That’s audio-out, and it’s the most exciting part of all.

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